I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN

I met him in the city of angels
Fresh out of school; he was taking a course
His smile so divine, I was glad when he became mine…
Then I let him go…
I should have known it was you
The formal introduction, was so simple
my corporate guy, loved the way he rocked that suit and tie.
The one whose eyes smile when around me
The one who is there when naysayers surround me
I was naive, maybe a bit foolish
I trusted in words was a bit impatient
I should have waited for his next move
As time went by it just happened
Got carried away by the sweet words of another
Now you are gone but definitely not in the arms of another
Your heart now guarded, I sit and ponder
I should have known it was you
Your soft voice when you address me
Your warm touch when you undress me
The taste of your lips, when we kiss
Those are some things I really miss
Sincerity in words and also in action
Compassionate u are, caring, attentive
U wanted the best for me
Supported my hustle
I should have known it was you
But I was carried away,
Carried away by what seemed like a happier life without you.
but I never did find that peace without you
Overtime I began to reason
I saw the truth after many seasons
The sweet words failed me
The promises denied me
Now I’m feeling all alone
Wishing I started my life with you
I know with you I would have a happy home
Though you were never really gone
You kept in touch
But not that much
You let me know that u still cared
I avoided it causes I was scared
Years gone by we meet again
Desire still apparent in your eyes
We sit and talk
You hold my hand
You make me smile
You make me laugh
You kiss my lips
While grabbing my hips
We make sweet love
It feels amazing
You catch me gazing
Thinking to myself
Cud u be back in my life
This journey has been so rife
Cos now I fully realize
In my element I need u
At my best I crave u
With all my soul I respect u
With every breathe I take I love u.
I should have known it was you.
It couldn’t have been anybody but you.

- Toni Payne